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What’s the point of chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo?

1 Aug

 

 

NMRK0731A few people have asked me this week what “Nam Myoho Renge Kyo” means, why I often say it, or close out emails with it. So I though it would be fun and informative to post the answer on my Health & Wellness page… the Holistic Voyage community. I’ll post it below 🙂

Nam Myoho Renge Kyo means “Devotion to the mystic law of cause and effect through sound and teaching.” Basically when I chant Nam Myoho Renge Kyo I am affirming to the universe that I am open to receiving protection, inspiration, healing, wisdom, divine support and love.

Buddhists also chant to have absolute happiness that is unbroken, indestructible and unshakable by obstacles or circumstances, to have good mind, body, spirit health (karmic and physical), longevity, harmonious families and purpose/mission-filled lives. It’s also a verbal commitment with the universe to take kind and compassionate action for one’s self and others and to treat all living beings with respect and dignity. This is all centered on our vow to advance world peace (Kosen Rufu).

I’m also affirming my understanding that karma is real, and anything I put out, will come back. Good causes manifest good circumstances. Bad causes equal consequences earned. Chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo (NMRK) allows me to tap into the universal protection and healing from the universe so that I am shielded by safety, led and aligned with synchronicity, and co-creating my dreams, desires, wishes and goals. It’s a prayer…affirming to myself and universe that I know my prayers will be answered, and I’m ready for assistance from my higher self and the universe to make it happen.

NMRK also is a prayer for happiness, healing and protection for others. (I chant for my family, friends, classmates, fellow Buddhist practitioners, mentors and Holistic Voyage community, and for the happiness and peace of all living beings.) NMRK is often a Buddhist or Japanese greeting too, kinda like saying Namaste or wishing someone well. I also chant to dissolve fear and gain confidence. (For example, I can’t swim and I’m afraid of water, but it was my dad’s birthday on July 28th and he wanted to go kayaking in 30 FEET of water. I didn’t want my fear to get in the way, so I chanted for courage, to eradicate fear and trust the universe that we would be protected and that the water was as safe as taking a shower. Guess what? I suddenly forgot all about my fear and had one of the best days of this summer.)

My mom has ESRD (Kidney failure) and has had it since September 2011. She’s been hospitalized 20 times since then, has been on hemo-dialysis and peritoneal dialysis and will soon receive a kidney transplant. Her battle with this disease could have been lost MANY times, but I know chanting for her to receive the best doctors & treatments, and chanting for her to live a long, healthy, happy life has made a HUGE difference and extended her life and gave her hope. I’m confident my mom WILL have a total health victory and receive the best kidney and be restored to perfect health (by the way, we’re both Buddhist and so is my life partner Tiffany.) I’ve also had major financial obstacles at certain points and have almost lost my home several times, but every time I chant with determination and faith, the money seems to magically appear in the nick of time.

When I first started practicing Buddhism 4 years ago, I was told to chant 5 minutes per day for 30 days for something specific and watch my prayers be answered, and my life transform and enhance. I chanted for 3 things, and all 3 were answered within 25 days. It was incredible. More over, it was the way I felt after chanting that made a difference. I felt calm, peaceful, alive, joyful and confident. I felt my life was truly designed to be happy, and that I deserved to have a wonderful life. I felt capable of improving the lives of my family members and changing the world for the better, and I became connected to a wonderful community of friends through the Buddhist organization and I finally felt supported, loved and inspired.

It’s said that the real meaning of NMRK can only be understood by those who chant it, as it’s power is boundless. I am living proof of this wonderful mystic law of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. That’s why I’m honored to speak this foreign words. However for more info about NMRK or Buddhism…check out the grass roots Buddhist organization that I practice with.

 

Soka Gakkai International: Buddhist Association for Peace, Culture and Education (Nichiren Buddhism)

Got happiness?

11 Dec

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A worldwide movement has been started to heal the world, heal the planet and uplift humanity. Many organizations, groups, families and individuals have made a conscious decision to recognize the interconnected of all life. To that end, people world-wide have joined forces and coined 12/12/12 at 9:30pm EST, 9:30pm JST as “Global Shift day”. On December 12, 2012 at exactly the same moment, the entire world will be uniting as many in body, one in mind to uplift humanity and bring about a positive shift. The entire world will slow down for a moment to share in love and peace for the planet and each other.  Anyone can participate.  There’s no special discipline required nor is any specific religious belief or philosophy.  I am encouraging as many people as I can to join in.

On 12/12/12 at 9:30pm EST, I vow to unite as a global citizen to uplift humanity. I will be chanting daimoku (Nam Myoho Renge Kyo) for the happiness and victorious lives of ALL living beings and for the sake of kosen-rufu (world peace). As a practitioner of Nichiren Buddhism with the Soka Gakkai International (www.sgi-usa.org) this is apart of our daily practice. Close to 13 million people in 192 countries and territories chant DAILY for world peace, happiness, victory, healing for themselves and others, long lives, wisdom, protection prosperity for all, and respect for our great planet.

Please feel free to join me in chanting daimoku on 12/12/12 at 9:30pm EST. Visit the SGI website to learn more about the organization, and it’s mission. Here’s a short video for you, to hear how to chant. (The great news, is daimoku is available 24/7 and is being chanted somewhere in the world each minute of the day. So no matter when you join in chanting, you’ll be in rhythm. I am just spreading the message to increase it from 13 million people chanting on 12/12/12 so we can expedite world peace 🙂

Here’s a great article I read once called “10 Good Reasons to Chant Nam-myoho-renge-kyo” If you’d like a video introduction to SGI instead of reading the SGI website here’s a good one.

If you’d like to find an SGI-USA center near you, just enter your zipcode.

If you’re like me and love YouTube videos and love to watch real people, with real results who you can relate to, SGI has a YouTube Channel.

To your happiness,

TORRIE

10 Things I’m Grateful for Today and Always

20 Nov

I am subscribed to a website/blog and today Marie Forleo the owner of the site requested all her viewers to write down 10 things they are grateful for and encourage us to do it daily. I love this idea. See below for my 10 things.

 

10 Things I’m grateful for:

1) My family. (I absolutely LOVE my parents, grandparents, great-grandmother, step-mom, sister and my in-laws.
2) My life partner. (She is the most wonderful, supportive person and has stuck by my side and proven unconditional love).
3) My dog Markie. (He’s the sweetest thing, makes me smile, makes me laugh, keeps me active and shows what it would like to be a mom).
4) My Nichiren Buddhist Practice. (I love having a spiritual practice that helps me grow and be victorious in all areas of my life. SGI-USA has been a HUGE support in my life and I love the friendships I’ve established and the SGI President Daisaku Ikeda is a WONDERFUL, inspiring and loving man).
5) My home in Maryland. (I have a wonderful apartment, great neighbors, plenty of inspiration and all the resources I need in a modernized world).
6) My school Institute for Integrative Nutrition. (I’ve learned a TON about Holistic Health and Wellness, Nutrition, Life Balance, am gaining the expertise and credentials needed to begin my very own health coaching practice and I’ve made some really great friends).
7) Clean water and nourishing food. (I’ve learned how to eat well to improve my health, I feel nourished and have access to whole foods and organic foods which is truly a blessing).
8) Nature. (Nature gives us EVERYTHING we need to be happy and healthy, and surrounds us with beauty and makes us feel apart of a bigger picture).
9) Wonderful books, informative sites, great blogs and awesome gurus/experts such as Marie Forleo, Carmen Marshall, Elizabeth Rider, Jessica Aiscough, Kris Carr, Gabrielle Bernstein, Mastin Kipp, Deepak Chopra, Joshua Rosenthal and MANY others. (I learn so much daily, understand my life more, create balance, feel more inspired, improve my health, feel capable of creating an awesome life and understand my mission in life).
10) The Universe. (There are protective forces that surround, heal and keep us safe, forces that allow our prayers, wishes determinations to be answered, forces that create synchronicity and a feeling that someone..a higher power is always with us).

There’s so much to be grateful, this list could go on. I feel warm and fuzzy just thinking about these few things 🙂 What a great exercise. I agree with Marie Forleo that we should ALL keep track daily of all that we’re grateful for.

Interconnectedness and “actual proof”

14 Nov

I had a very encouraging dialogue yesterday. A kayo-kai sister Dharini introduced me to another YWD who’s going through the same thing I’m going through. This is an email reply that I sent to both of them. I’m posting this because this is yet again “actual proof” of the interconnectedness of SGI members (and life itself) and yet another benefit and answered prayer. I promised you all that I would share my journey to “human revolution” and victory, and this is part of it 🙂

Hi Dharini, Eun & Michiko,

Dharini- Good to hear from you. Sorry I missed you this weekend. I don’t have transportation right now (car is in the shop). I hope everyone enjoyed the Youth meeting. I was REALLY upset that I missed it. I REALLY wanted to be there.

Also, I must say this; I absolutely LOVE, ADORE, and APPRECIATE you. You are such an awesome Myoho sister. You are going to make an awesome YWD leader, and I look forward to getting to know you better and building a friendship with you. Ever since you joined SGI, you have been a courageous YWD, tirelessly working for everyone’s happiness. I chant for you daily to have a victorious life where your wonderful causes manifest in your life. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all you do!!!! Thank you so much for connecting me with Eun and I assure you, I WILL pay it forward and support her in her practice and inspire her like you (and your mom) have inspired me. I look forward to supporting you as well and chanting with you for your victories. (How’s the job situation coming along?)

Eun- I wish I had the opportunity to meet you over the weekend. Nice to virtually meet you. I look forward to meeting you in person. I’m very sorry to hear of the obstacle you and your family are facing, but rest assured that this will be a major source of benefit, and you and your family WILL be victorious.

I live in Pikesville, I’m 28 and also have been practicing for 3 years 🙂 I practice with the Jones Falls district in Baltimore. My mom (Michele) was diagnosed with ESRD in Sept 2011. She started Dialysis treatment on June 15, 2012. My mom is 46, very petite, has been a vegetarian for 21 years, never smoked, never drank alcohol, never did drugs, and isn’t diabetic, so this was a major shock to us. I just began the process for testing to see if I’m her donor. We are a 4 out of 6 match which is great, but her blood is building anti-bodies to my blood due to the fact that she’s had 3 blood transfusions since her kidneys failed. I am hoping I can still be her donor.

I would love to learn about you and your sister. Please tell me her name so I can chant for both of you. You are such a wonderful, compassionate and courageous person for wanting to donate to your sister. I pray you are a match. Let’s talk very soon so I can learn about the situation, share some advice and tips with you, and share guidance that’s been most helpful to both me and my mom. I’m really sorry this is your situation, but on a positive note, I am so happy Dharini connected us, and that we now have each other to share this journey. Other than Dharini, I only know one other member (Michiko- an awesome WD member in Ellicott City) who has gone through our same situation. Michiko received a kidney transplant. She almost died, but used this practice to save her life. I cc’d her on this email also. She really encouraged me when I first found out about my mom, and she lives in my mom’s district. (My mom received Gohonzon 3 years ago, 6 months after I received mine).

I have soooo much to share with you Eun and feel like Nam Myoho Renge Kyo brought us together. I am sooo grateful. THIS is a major break-through and benefit. I can’t wait to meet you, and can’t wait to share a victory alongside you. We WILL have an awesome outcome. Although many members have similar obstacles, you have no idea how rare it is to meet a member going through this situation.

Check this out: my mom’s tech at the dialysis clinic she goes to (Ellicott City Dialysis) also chants!!! How Myoho is that? None of this is happening to us by mistake. Just the fact that Dharini met you, Dharini of ALL people is such a reminder of the infinite power of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. I KNOW our prayers are being answered. This is what we call an inconspicuous benefit. I am now even more determined than ever to continue to advance Kosen-rufu and more determined to show actual proof of this practice, so thank you!!! My contact info is below in the signature of this email. Please contact me ANYTIME. I look forward to hearing from you. Please stay encouraged, you and your sister are going to win!!!

Michiko- This is amazing!!! I am seeing the mystic law unfold in wonderful ways. My mom just so happened to be in YOUR district, and thanks to Kazumi connecting us, you encouraged me at a very low point in my life, and shared your story with me. I met Dharini by ACCIDENT on the day she received Gohonzon on Sept 16th 2012. (I NEVER attend Charles Village discussion meetings, I was there because my Shakubuku Grace was receiving Gohonzon and that’s the district she was in.) I heard Dharini share a partial experience and that’s the district she’s in. A few weeks later my mom was hospitalized for the 10th time, I posted it on Facebook and Dharini emailed me and encouraged me sooo much. I discovered her mom who lives in India had just received a kidney transplant 6 weeks prior and Dharini had been chanting for her mom’s victory and when it happened (she was shocked) and that’s what inspired her to receive Gohonzon. The interconnectedness of us SGI members is amazing!!! So now, you, my mom and I have the opportunity to support Eun and her sister toward a victory. I LOVE this practice!!!

I have to call my mom to share this with her. I hope this will inspire her to keep chanting because a TOTAL health victory is within reach. For the sake of Kosen-rufu and Eun and her sister, she MUST win!!! Eun and her sister MUST win because they will inspire others. This is awesome.

Thanks again Dharini. You have no idea what an awesome ripple effect you just started!!! I have to blog about this to inspire other members and other people seeking happiness and victory! Nam Myoho Renge Kyo is absolute!!

Great News!!

8 Nov

Here’s my Facebook post from a few days ago. Thought I’d share it here 🙂
(Just a note, I did not fulfill my goal of hitting one million daimoku by my original goal date, but I am still pushing forward and will not give up on my goal of one million daimoku. The amount of daimoku that you chant daily doesn’t matter, it’s the heart and your determination that matters. Another blog that I follow http://chantforhappiness.blogspot.com/ urges us to “Chant to increase the power of your daimoku by 10,000 times.” That’s what I’m doing. I need to increase the power of my daimoku, then the one million daimoku target will follow. Thank you Jaime Lee Silver!!! If you all haven’t started following her blog, I STRONGLY recommend it. This woman is AMAZING, full of wisdom, strong faith and love. Let’s all unite to increase the power of our prayers by 10,000 times.)

Most of you know my mom has ESRD (Kidney failure) and started Dialysis on June 15th, 2012. Well here’s some GREAT news (and an answer to my prayers and the prayers of everyone else who’s supported along the way); The University of Maryland Kidney Transplant Center coordinator called me today: they are ready for me to start the “work-up” to be my mom’s donor. I have to do a 24 hour urine collection
so they can test the strength of my kidneys, a pap-smear, some blood work and a physical, then an all day medical evaluation, plus a few more test. They said I’m a perfect match for my mom, we just need to wait a little longer because of her blood transfusions. (her blood has formed antibodies due to the 3 blood transfusions, so her blood is confused right now, otherwise our blood is PERFECT together, and my kidney is perfect for her body otherwise). (I also need to lose a little weight, thank goodness I’m a student at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition LOL, now I can finally get this weight off in a healthy and sustainable way. I have the tools, now need to use them). Fortunately, even if her blood continues to have issues with my blood, that won’t slow anything down. I would go into a “cross-match program”. Here’s an example/scenario of what that means

(Let’s say a lady named Tina is a B+ blood type and needs a kidney. She has a daughter named Marie who is an O+ and wants to be her mom’s donor and has a perfect kidney, but their blood types are incompatible. My mom Michele is an AB+ and I’m a B+ so our blood types ARE compatible, (actually AB+ although a rare blood type, is the ONLY blood type that can receive a kidney from ANY blood type as long as the antigens match, which mine do match. My mom was fortunate to have this blood type) but my mom is also compatible with Tina’s daughter Marie. Since Tina is NOT compatible with her own daughter, but IS compatible with me, and my mom is a universal recipient, I could be Tina’s donor and her daughter Marie could be my mom’s donor.)

I don’t mind doing the cross-match program, I actually think it’s great because essentially I get to save 2 lives at once. The donor center is just going to keep doing testing to make sure that doing the cross-match is best for my mom. If my kidney is better for her, we’ll go that route, but if cross-match is equally good, we’ll do that so we can save her life and someone else’s life. I’m putting it in the hands of the universe. I’m praying for the best possible outcome, the best kidney for my mom, and praying that everyone involved lives a long, happy, healthy life. I’m really excited about this process..even though it’s scary, I’m very happy to do this for my mom, and happy that I may even get to help someone else in the process. How cool is that??? What a great mission 🙂 I’m very grateful I get to participate in this, and share this journey with my wonderful mommy 🙂

Thanks again to everyone who’s supported my family during this time. My wife, my family, my friends, the Wright family (my in-laws), my SGI family (Buddhist friends) my IIN friends, even my facebook friends…you all have been sooo important in this process, encouraging, compassionate and committed/united in prayer. People have visited my mom at the hospital during her 10 hospital stays, called her to support/encourage her, went over to chant with her, chanted/prayed for her, sent cards and gifts, advocated for her medical care, sent uplifting emails, left wonderful comments, have called me, chanted with me, offered support, offered to run errands, talked with me during weak moments, facebooked kind words, ect. It’s amazing!!! I love you all. Thank you soooo much!!! I promised my mom a TOTAL HEALTH VICTORY, and dammit, I’m going to show her actual proof. I promised you all our prayers would be answered, and here we go, we’re almost there 🙂 I’m VERY absolute in my beliefs that Nam Myoho Renge Kyo works and would protect my mom. It’s coming to fruition at high speed. I am OVERWHELMED with gratitude right now. Thanks to each of you and thanks to the Universe!!! ♥ To each of you, I extend love, light, gratitude, appreciation and a commitment to repay my debt of gratitude. Stay tuned for a TOTAL Health Victory and good health head to toe for my mom, and I pray for victory in all areas of life for each of you.

Victory report

17 Jul

Hey everyone. So I’m very late posting this, but I have an awesome victory report. Yay!!!!! Nam Myoho Renge Kyo is VERY present, active and responding. I’m very grateful. It’s not just MY victory, it’s OUR victory. Every single person who chanted even a single daimoku for me or my mom should celebrate this victory.

So my mom went into the hospital for the 7th time in less than a year on Thurs 07/12/12. This time she had to go in because:

  1. She just started dialysis 3 weeks ago, and she was having some side affects such as shoulder pain, weakness and low energy.
  2. She was having serious breathing problems caused from severe chest and stomach pain. It hindered her sleeping ability and she couldn’t lay flat.
  3. Her primary doctor suspected she had an enlarged liver (very dangerous) and thought her heart was overworking sue to a low blood count.
  4. She needed another blood transfusion. (she had 2 like 2 months ago.)
  5. Her blood pressure has been very high lately.
  6. Due to the stomach issues, she had to be tested for ulcers, gall-bladder disorders and colon cancer.

So my mom found out a year 1/2 ago that her kidneys were failing. In Sept 2011 she was told she had “End Stage Renal Disease” (ESRD) and would ultimately need to stay on dialysis for the rest of her life, or will need a kidney transplant. My mom is young (45), has always been very careful about staying healthy (she is very petite, has been a vegetarian for 20 years, often eats vegan and gluten free food, never smoked, never did drugs and is only a social drinker but still RARELY drinks, she exercises, takes vitamins and regularly sees a doctor and Holistic doctors.) but the problem is she has a hereditary condition: High Blood pressure. We are also JUST discovering that her dad’s side of the family is plagued with kidney issues.

I personally feel my mom has kidney issues for a very noble reason: As a Buddhist practitioner, she chose this mission before reincarnating into this lifetime to #1 clean up and transform her karma, #2 to teach people health isn’t just physical, it’s actually mind/body/spirit. If one is off balance, all become off balance (she has a lot of stress, and even though she is Buddhist now, she wasn’t Buddhist until 2 1/2 years ago {I introduced her to the practice} but she also hasn’t been consistently practicing. Those 2 things are indicative that her spirit/mind are affecting her body). #3 to get better so she can encourage others and teach others the power of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. #4 Because she needs to slow down and enjoy life more than suffer, so having kidney issues makes her sit still, be quiet and relax sometimes so she can reflect on life. #5 Being sick gives you a new prospective on life. She will be inspired to live life to it’s fullest, recognize areas of her life she wants to change, and truly being able to become happy. I think this will help her do her “human revolution” (attaining Buddhahood, a self-transformation achieved through Nichiren Buddhist practice within the SGI. This transformation includes breaking the shackles of our ego-centered “lesser selves” and revealing out “greater selves,” wherein we experience deep compassion and joyfully take action for the sake of others and ultimately all humanity.” Quoted from Living Buddhism magazine)

“A great human revolution in just a single individual will help achieve a change in the destiny of a nation and, further, can even enable a change in the destiny of all humankind.”SGI President Daisaku Ikeda.

So here are a list of the victories and break-throughs that occurred thanks to chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo (she chanted, I chanted, my life-partner (wife) Tiffany chanted and other SGI members chanted for us).

  • At the last hospital (University of Maryland) my mom was told that she can’t keep getting blood transfusions because it will affect her chances for a matching donor kidney due to anti-bodies. So my mom was really upset that she had to get a transfusion again. Luckily, this time my mom was admitted to Howard County General (which just so happens to be the same place where she was first hospitalized in September 2011 and diagnosed with ESRD), and they actually keep a stock of “leukocyte reduced blood” which the American Red Cross recommends for cases like hers. So that’s the blood she received, therefore doesn’t pose a risk to her future donated kidney. (Not sure why U of M didn’t recommend this, but the point is, she got it this time). Also, she didn’t have to have 3 pints transfused like the last time, so instead of having 3 people’s blood running through her veins, she just has one person’s blood.
  • Despite what the doctor suspected and feared, my mom’s CT scan, Colonoscopy, Ultrasound, Nuclear medicine imaging scan, X-rays and blood work were ALL clear. They have ruled out the enlarged liver, heart problems, gall bladder dysfunction, internal bleeding, enlarged liver, colon cancer, ulcers and any other dangers. The ONLY thing that was wrong with my mom is: she needed blood, she had fluid on her lungs and stomach which was removed by dialysis and medication, and she has Gastritis (inflammation of her stomach lining) which was treated with meds. Her breathing and sleeping has returned to normal, the pain is reduced and she can walk now without stopping to catch her breath. Oh and equally important, my mom DID NOT have any adverse reactions to the radioactive substance used during the Nuclear medicine scan, or the anesthesia from the colonoscopy, nor did she experience pain from the colonoscopy itself. In fact when she woke up from the anesthesia in the recovery room, she asked, “so when are you guys starting the procedure?” The tech replied, “Ms. Riley, it’s already done and everything was good.
  • The last time my mom was at Howard General, she had a HORRIBLE, rude, cold-hearted doctor and a suck ass room. After chanting for the happiness of all my mom’s doctors, nurses, techs and staff and chanting for the best possible care and best possible treatments, my mom got an awesome doctor who was really compassionate, sweet, informative and patient. Here’s the funny and myoho (mystic) thing about it……it was the SAME DAMN doctor she had before, that she didn’t like!!!! LOL. How crazy is that??? If that’s not proof Nam Myoho Renge Kyo works, I don’t know what is. My mom also got an awesome, PRIVATE, pretty room with good nurses.
  • 3 weeks ago when my mom started dialysis, she was not pleased with the dialysis clinic and preferred to go to Davita. We just found out that the Nephrologist she is assigned to at her current clinic is the BEST Nephrologist in Maryland. (Dr. Jia Liu in Ellicott City/Columbia, MD). Dr. Liu also happens to work at Howard County General, and was the doctor on call to come see my mom!!!! Not only is she the best, but she was able to FINALLY talk some sense into my mom. For 8 1/2 months, medical professionals/family have been trying to get my mom to agree to Peritoneal dialysis rather than Hemo-Dialysis (Hemo required my mom to get an emergency catheter placed in her internal jugular vein…a dangerous and risky location prone to injury, infections, complications ect. My mom preferred this for aesthetic reasons, and because she loves taking long bubble baths daily, and Peritoneal ports only allow for showers. She also didn’t want to have another operation (the catheter was done on an emergency basis that had to be done either way, but can be removed once she starts peritoneal) Peritoneal dialysis is a laparoscopic catheter placed in the stomach, but is MUCH safer, less risky, improves the quality of life of a patient, and Peritoneal dialysis itself is more convenient as it’s done at home at night while you sleep, instead of 3 days per week, for 4 hours at a clinic. It also will reduce some of the side effects- (she currently gets headaches, leg pain and weakness after dialysis. She has shoulder pain also, which may be related to the jugular catheter) and may even help my mom totally get off her blood pressure meds as it regulates blood pressure, and people who are on peritoneal dialysis permanently, live longer than hemo-dialysis patients.) Sadly, despite the very obvious reasons why peritoneal is better, my mom was being super stubborn and wanted hemo-dialysis. On Friday Dr. Liu talked to my mom and finally convinced her to do peritoneal. This is a HUGE victory because that jugular catheter scares the CRAP out of me and everyone else. She’s already had complications and an infection (which is now gone) from it. This decision alone made it totally worth my mom being hospitalized!! How cool is that???
  • Also, my mom had to close her business/office (Self-Employed Massage Therapist) because the current catheter prohibited her from doing massages. Everyone who’s ever been to my mom’s office can tell you she is HANDS DOWN the BEST massage therapist. I was so sad 2 weeks ago when I had to help my mom pack up her office. I know she likes doing massage, and that just totally killed her income. Her clients have been calling her like crazy and my mom HATED telling them she is no longer in business and she felt bad for the clients. That made me sad. She also had to turn down a MAJOR contract which SUCKED! She’s already ended her lease for the office and turned in the keys. However, now thanks to Dr. Liu, my mom can resume doing massage once she gets the peritoneal port implanted in her stomach. I know some of you are thinking, “well that still sucks, she already gave up her business.” Actually, it was STILL a benefit. Here’s why #1 That office was in an upscale office park building in Elite Columbia, MD, which was very expensive which ate into her profit. #2 Because of the office rent, my mom would work and do clients whether she felt sick or not. #3 She had to drive to the office and burn gas. Now, my mom has flexibility and can work from home when she feels like it. Her house is big enough that she can set up her massage room there. She can just see her regular clients that she trusts, and doesn’t have to burn gas or pay rent to do it. Also, if she doesn’t feel well, she can just choose not to work, instead of being obligated. This is a perfect situation that would have never occurred if she didn’t get that emergency catheter. My mom is very stubborn and would have never given up her office. So as you can see, her obstacle was essentially her protection.
  • My mom went from weighing 132 pounds down to 112 pounds due to the illness. Also due to the toxin build-up in her body, she started itching really bad all over, so much that she was scarring her skin from all the scratching and caused it to darken. She even had spots all over and had dark rings under her eyes. She is now gaining some weight back and looks healthier, her skin is returning to it’s normal color, the dark rings are gone and the scarring is going away. She’s not even itching as bad as before. She looks like herself again and has more energy.
  • My mom was discharged from the hospital Sunday 07/15/12 and is doing very well. In fact she was out running errands with another SGI member and building a bond with her. She even went grocery shopping and cooked.

I am so amazed, inspired and appreciative of all of these victories. It strengthened my faith and allowed me to know without a doubt my prayers are being answered. My gratitude is fully present when I think about the wonderful SGI members. Each time my mom is hospitalized, members call, email and text my mom. Members visit her, chant with her, share guidance and encourage her. Most importantly, they send her daimoku (chant for her) and give us hope. Every SGI member I know has been supportive in one form or another. My own life partner Tiffany who is also a member did more than you could imagine to be supportive. (Since I don’t have a license she takes me daily to visit my mom at the hospital, and sits with me there for hours, picks up my grandmother to visit my mom. Takes my grandmother grocery shopping and to doctor’s appointments. She even does shopping for my great grandmother. She chants with me, lets me vent and is always optimistic. I am beyond grateful to this woman). Every time I speak with a precious SGI member, I always feel better, more encouraged, have more faith and feel more determined to become a better daughter to my mom. I never feel alone. I know without a doubt if I didn’t practice Nichiren Buddhism, I would not be able to handle my mom’s illness. I would have been so sad, worried, defeated and angry, I would have gone down a destructive path, cried constantly or even committed suicide because I would have felt hopeless and feared the worst for my mom and wouldn’t have wanted to stick around to see something bad happen. Nichiren Buddhism gives me the strength needed to carry on, support my mom, and have faith of a victory.

I constantly re-read the Gosho (Writings of Nichiren Daishonin) “The Good Medicine for all Ills” and read President Ikeda’s lecture on this Gosho. That one Gosho alone will give anyone with any obstacle hope, that through Nichiren Buddhism you can turn poison into medicine, suffering into joy. I also read the following quotes by President Ikeda:

“Illness is part of life. From the perspective of Buddhism, the important thing is to summon the courage to fight it with the determination to make a breakthrough. True health is found in a positive and constructive attitude. ”

“Illness is not something to feel ashamed of. It is not a sign of misfortune or defeat. Suffering is the fuel of wisdom, and it opens the way to happiness. Through illness, human beings can gain insight into the meaning of life, understand its value and dignity, and strive to lead more fulfilling lives.”

I am very grateful for SGI, the leaders, members and friends in faith, President Ikeda, my life partner Tiffany, all the doctors, nurses and staff taking care of my mom, and my mom for letting me share this journey with her, for showing strength and a willingness to overcome this illness, and I’m proud of her for trusting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo and showing it’s power.

In closing, whenever I face ANY obstacle, I muster faith, chant Nam Myoho Renge Kyo and remember this quote:

“If you have faith in this Gohonzon and chant Nam Myoho Renge Kyo even for a short while, no prayer will go unanswered, no offense un-expiated, no good fortune un-bestowed, and all righteousness proven.”
Commentary on “The true object of worship” by Nichikan Shonin

Benefit report

14 Jul

In Nichiren Buddhism we experience what we call conspicuous and inconspicuous benefits, break-throughs and victories. Want to see what my mom, my wife, other SGI members and I accomplished and manifested quickly??? Read below.

 Here’s my daily benefit report: As I’ve mentioned in my 2 previous post, one of the main things I’m chanting for is my mom’s total health victory and for her to be 100% cured head to toe. My determination for this is sooo aggressive, I purchased a journal and actually wrote 5 pages of specific things I want to improve. I won’t bore you all with the list, but I will say I’m seeing actual proof of an answered prayer already!!!
My mom was told in November 2011 she would need to begin dialysis soon due to her rapidly daily kidneys. Her nephrologist advised her she should get a fistula implanted in her arm. (an artificial vein that allows them to dialyze and clean her blood and remove toxins). My mom was not ready to face reality, so she declined. He advised her the fistula would take 6 months to mature to a point where she could begin dialysis through that port. My mom decided to gamble, think positive and hope it wouldn’t come to that. She chanted, but not consistently. Prayers are always answered in Buddhism, but you have to stay committed to your prayers and make the right causes, pray until something happens, and never be defeated. Her nephrologist told her if she waited too long, she would end up needing emergency dialysis, would have to have a very dangerous procedure where they inserted a catheter in the internal jugular vein in her neck, with the tube running through her chest. She didn’t want that, but she waited so long, she had to have this done on June 15, 2012 and has been on dialysis ever since.
 A doctor told my mom this catheter could last up to a year, but everyone advised her it was still best to get the fistula in her arm for hemodialysis at the clinic, or prepare for peritoneal dialysis (at home machine used while you sleep) and get a port installed in her stomach. She declined both and said she would just keep the catheter in her jugular and hope that she had no complications.
Here’s the problem- not only is the catheter in a dangerous location (her freaking jugular) but it also prohibits a lot of activities and sleeping positions, and poses a 54% probability of getting infected. My mom actually got an infection a week after it was surgically implanted (which was caught immediately and eliminated immediately thanks to my prayers for her protection, all the members chanting for her and her chanting for herself), so we see this is not a good idea. Despite this, my mom still decided she didn’t want to be “put under” for another dialysis port procedure even though the arm and stomach is a better location, and she didn’t want to have surgery again or be cut on until it was time for her kidney transplant. Everyone, doctors, nurses, family and websites all advised removing the catheter in the jugular as quickly as possible and have the other ports instead. My mom being the stubborn, strong-willed person she is repeatedly said, “It’s my effing body! I do not want an ugly fistula in my arm and I don’t want tubes surgically implanted in my stomach! I don’t care if it’s better, this is easier for me since it’s already there! Stop bringing it up!”
Here’s what part of my prayer was effective yesterday.
“For the sake of Kosen-rufu, I pray for my mom to have a total health victory and be cured 100% head to toe.
-My mom will have the absolute best, most compassionate, most knowledgeable, highly trained, professional doctors, nurses, techs and medical staff, who provide the best treatment, medicine, resources and support and will be capable of treating, healing and curing her.
-My mom will awaken to what’s best for her safety, protection and good health, and will be the best, most obedient patient and will be open to receive, accept, appreciate and follow the advice of her doctors to allow them to best treat and heal her. She will always receive the absolute best care, treatment, medicine, procedures, techniques, support and resources so she will have medical staff she can trust and be confident that they will assist in her total health victory.
Here’s the benefit. After only ONE day of chanting this way, (especially 8 1/2 months of her refusing to have the fistula or stomach port,) can you believe my mom suddenly decided IN ONE DAY to go ahead and listen to the doctor’s advice, and has finally agreed to the stomach port for peritoneal dialysis??? That’s absolutely amazing!!!! So once this is done, she can get the catheter taken out, and have dialysis done properly. (again, the catheter is only for emergencies and not meant for long-term use. It’s too risky) I am soooo grateful and happy to hear this. The nephrologist simply said, “Miss Riley, I think you should get the stomach port. It will be safer, will reduce your risk for infection, and will eliminate your headaches post-dialysis.” I’m blown away because doctors/medical staff have been trying to get her to do this for months, and no matter what they said, she chose to keep the unsafe, risky, limiting catheter simply because she didn’t want another surgery. Suddenly, the mystic law of Nam Myoho Renge Kyo goes to work, responds to my prayer and less than 24 hours later is showing me that my prayers can and will be answered. Wow! I am soooo appreciative.
I told my mom about the above prayer and she said, “you know, funny you should mentioned you prayed like that. One of the hospital doctors I didn’t like who was assigned to me before is once again assigned to me. As soon as I saw her I got pissed because I remember her being rude, cold, short, impatient and not helpful. Funny, today she was a total different person. She was nice, caring, sweet, patient, compassionate, informative and helpful. It’s almost like your prayer affected her already!”
I said, “yup, it sure did. I told you I chanted about it last night. Mom, you’re going to be totally fine. Have faith. I’m going to keep chanting. You WILL be in perfect health again.”
Lmao!!!!! How AWESOME is that???? That’s called “actual proof”!!!! The mystic law doesn’t mess around!!! Nam Myoho Renge Kyo is real, absolute and wonderful.
I texted my mom’s other half and explained that my mom was finally going to do the CORRECT port, and this is the response I got;
“What??? Are you serious? That’s unbelievable! I wonder what changed her mind? Wow! That’s amazing! I’m glad she changed her mind. Wow, that’s almost magical.”
My response
“it’s because I chanted about it. I told you this practice works. It was all prayer. I was more serious about my prayer this time, and it worked.”
Is this not a great start on the path to victory??? I’m sooooo excited and full of gratitude! Ain’t no stopping us now lol.
Here’s the deal, it’s not just my prayer less than 24 hours ago….I have A LOT of support. All the SGI members in Maryland have been sending daimoku (chanting Nam Myoho Renge Kyo like crazy). So this is essentially OUR victory and OUR answered prayers. I am sooooo beyond grateful for the support of all the SGI members. Whenever I’m too sad, weak, scared or bummed out to stay encouraged, they are right there by my side being a shoulder to lean on, a wonderful family providing love, guidance, support, encouragement, inspiration and prayers. They are wonderful. My mom and I are so appreciative for these amazing, compassionate, courageous SGI members. Thank you sooo much! Sensei is right, when we unite in prayer and have a shared vow for victory, the protective forces and mystic law go to work quickly and responds with amazing results.
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